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Monday, June 14th, 2004

Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:51 am.
there are cold
hard
cash solutions
to the perils of being human
cost efficient
life avenues
we as consumers are free to choose
to piece together
that perfect self
with a perfect wardrobe and perfect health
you'll find package deals
at discount prices
flaunting their virtues and hiding their vices
its an open market
dealing in ruin
with a thousand hands to usher you in
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Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:51 am.
everyday we do
careless things
we do not care we do
careless things
high on a wire
over a choir of knives
we do not worry
we are risking our lives
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Subject:this one's stupid
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:51 am.
forgetfulness
settles like a fog
a mist to get lost in
stupefied
stutter and repeat myself
wonder i can dress myself
the other day i
something seems to distract me
stutter and repeat myself
always seem to lose myself
absent minded
haven't quite decided
concentrated
sorry wasn't paying attention
stutter and repeat myself
never will complete this self
so on
and on it goes
without sense or purpose
the same stuttering repetition
jumbled mess of rhythm
the same
did you just say something?
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Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:51 am.
is the climax of existence
gonna come around and fix us
or are we already
heading out?
might we just discover
some time or another
what this has all
been about

are we indeed
born just to die
the hope of purpose
another lie?
should we all
just sit and pout
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Subject:hanging gardens
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
lacquered acres of intestine
dangling babylonian
black with mucoid plaque
swaying slick and slack
stringy sick with lack
parasitic infestation
coiled soil to invest in
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Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
i could peel off
with razors
the layers of your skin
my only hesitation
being where to begin
i could tender that meat
i could brittle those bones
i could force into you
all the terror i've known
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Subject:um... from freshman spanish
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
chingapescadora
two ball bitch senora
black and blue
look good on you
chingapescadora
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Subject:a veces
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
a veces
cuando estoy levantado
ciento metros alto
abajo miro ver
un mundo
que no conozco
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Subject:promising coward
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
a promising coward
with good intentions
and slothful
shameful
ways and misconceptions
misunderstood
misunderstanding
quietly hopeful
something will lift him up
or wash him away
a tolerated one last hope
who fails to even try
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Subject:dickbird
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
tugboat shitbag pusfilled fungus
bloated meastsack slopehead whore
greasy assmouth hunchback flunky
we feed you shit you beg for more
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Subject:creepy fag
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
you do not realize
but i feel your eyes
intruding upon me
taking liberty
exploring landscapes your hands will never see
drooling dog
jack-off monkey
do you know where you are?
there are no cocks here
for you to suck
chicken hawk
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Subject:monochromatic
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
monochromatic
no sun in the sky
the season is changing
but showing no signs
a desolate daydream
no shelter from the rain
monochromatic
lingering pain

another casualty
of a wasted reality
another victim of
consuming banality

monochromatic
assault on the soul
the world is on fire
but the ground is still cold
my pupil spills
into the white of my eye
monochromatic
dimming light
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Subject:timeless
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
i stay awake
all night and day
paralyzed
desensitized
i gather dust
blood and rust
sticky in my veins
my paper skin stains
swells and brakes
uncoiling like snakes
i spread myself thin
rot from within
too hungry to feed
too dry to bleed
forever caught
in autumn
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Subject:one third
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:07 am.
one third
one divided by three
to percentage it is astounding
it defeats me
thirty three point three
three three three
three and forever three
continuing on
growing
while shrinking
yet growing
but shrinking
i would draw a graph
to explain
how three and three and three
stretch out eternally
but i haven't
the time
the paper
or the patience
for three and three and three
so I'll just let it be
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Subject:dedos delicados
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:06 am.
down down flowing brown
from delicate fingers fall
rays reflected trace a crown
her grace consumes my all
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Subject:he has a lamp
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:05 am.
he has a lamp
I forgot mine
I wish I hadn't
the lights in my room assault me
his fridge is stocked
I drank my
last coke Tuesday
and have yet to return to the store
we turn the fan out
and he is rolling
he is good
experience steadies his hand
we talk lightly of our past
our future
and we live our present
we are taking it deep within us
holding it like a loved one
I lay back
sink into velvet softness
so glad I learned to swim
I don't want to drown
in this cozy blanket
like a warm water lake
a pale light gleams through
the comfortable murk
I push my way to
and rise from the depths
of an old familiar couch
my lamp is in the corner
I'm tired but I cannot sleep
cold silence comes
settles til morning
my body atrophies
from the heart out
I turn to swim
to retreat into the couch
it resists
something is holding me back
but soon I am once again
far from home
and he is rolling
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Subject:never my angel
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:03 am.
i have been watching
her
in the darkness
and confusion, i have found
a presense
with divine down
that man dare not
offend
i have walked past
to pick up
subtle fragrances
that might have danced off of her
onto the gracefully
swaying stage
of smoke in the air
like me, it cannot escape
the closeness of the room
and the people
and this trance-like intoxication
the light is dim and
strangely colored
but i can see as she turns
her head
and looks in my direction
she is a pearl
in a red cloud at midnight
i have been watching her
and now, she is seeing me
my thoughts and emotions thrash around
with brutal turbulence
they excavate my most dear
and painful memories
and discard them
as if hoping for
a wild card
oh god, she is so lovely and tonight i'm going to
go home
alone
the liquor in my head
miss jane
the crazy painted fish
swimming in it
are not enough
to quicken me
they offer only the illusion of courage
fuck my weakness
fuck my frail motivation
fuck me
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Subject:skyward
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:03 am.
i'm sending my mind skyward
through the air, like a bird
a spectacle for all to see
a haze of wine and agony
my thoughts scatter across the wall
daydreams echo down the hall
crimson rain forms a crimson sea
this mess that's left if what's left of me
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Subject:this day
Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:01 am.
this day
is mine
not his
or hers
but mine
you assumed, of course
that it was yours
its not
its mine

you must see
(Sartre might agree)
everything that is
and ever will be
is mine

the morn is mine
the eve is mine
whether horrid
or sublime
this day
is mine
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Posted by:elahrairha.
Time:11:00 am.
try to catch your problems
while they are unaware
so you can catch them by the throat
and choke off all their air
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